That's what's been happening. In Vegas I ate too much. Then, when we returned from Vegas and went to pick up my kids from my mother's house, my mother presented me with two huge Zip-Lock bags full of gigantic cookies they had baked while we were gone. My mother knows I'm trying to lose weight. My mother knows my first word was "cookie" (seriously). Ostensibly, the cookies are for the kids. I feel really bad and guilty that I can't keep cookies in my house for my children to enjoy right now. But I thought I'd try and hopefully avoid them and save them just for the kids.
Well, another experiment gone wrong. Tuesday night I ate 5 cookies in quick succession. I analyzed it and I think it's because I've got a busy week with not much time to myself (like everyone else...not feeling sorry for myself) and reacted to what was in front of me. I now know I cannot have cookies in the house. I confessed my transgression to my husband and sheepishly asked him to take the rest to work so I wouldn't have to deal with them anymore.
16 Thanks for supporting my habit:
Amy, there are just certain things I can't keep around. We have a freezer in the garage which helps with some things. And a little chocolate I can deal with more or less responsibly. I wanted to keep a jar of candy out for the kids, to keep them from thinking they had to get all excited about it, right? And I was the one who couldn't pass it up. I gave it to my eldest to hide :)
Life has a way of throwing up roadblocks just when we think we can stick it on cruise control. The holiday season can be especially rough, but my plan is to focus on January 1, 2010. That's when I know there'll be a majority of people that will be making resolutions to lose weight and flooding the gym with their newfound commitment.
I don't want to be in that herd with them; I want a two-month headstart on these folks.
And toss the cookies. Don't let anything in your house that has that kind of effect on you.
I had to ask my husband to stop buying chips of any kind because I do the same thing with them. I hope that this can just be a permanent change. It is so hard when other people give you food! I struggle with this too. Great job on staying under 180!
Go Amy go!
I've had to have the husband remove contraband from the homefront many times. But you are under 180 - that's fantastic! Now I feel I'm getting closer to being under 190, but given my track record, I could be writing that next March! Just hang in there. It's great that you "did no harm" over your milestone birthday.
I would have a hard time resisting homemade cookies if they were in my house. I can not make them, no prob, but if they were given to me then it's crazy time. I don't blame you for getting rid of them - your kids probably ate plenty when they were at your mom's anyway. Maybe she just wanted them out of her house, lol!
Smart move on getting rid of the cookies. If they're not there, you can't eat them.
I've been in your situation many times. Instead of cookies its pan dulce. Urgh... its difficult. We know these episodes are interfering with our weight loss, but we continue. Just keep trying. No shame in asking the husband to take the cookies to work.
It's one thing to say that the only person who can sabotage my efforts is me. It's another to have to stare down a baggie of giant cookies. I agree ... get them out of the house. Why make it harder?
Cookies are dangerous to me - even still. If I don't eat one then I'm okay. But if I start then the end result might not be pretty!
I know that maintaining this weight is frustrating, but perhaps if you look at it as practice for long-term maintenance that will help you. You now know how to maintain this weight, so once you cut back a bit from here, you will start to lose again. Then you can figure out how to maintain at the new lower weight.
Stay strong Amy!
cookies are heroin to me. gotta keep the cookies away. they're not even good for the kiddos either, don't feel so bad.
with treats for even kids, i think single hits are the healthy way to go. stored vats of icecream, cookies, brownies is what got me in the shape im in today :)
i swear I sabotage myself too. It's so bad. It's all about hiking up the bootstraps and moving forward. It's my goal to have a great day tomorrow and this weekend. One day at a time! You can do it!
you absolutely have a right NOT to be sabotaged in your own home.
and the things that you insist on (foods in the house, non-foods NOT in the house, ability/time to exercise, no stress) do NOT mean that you are weak. they are things that everyone, everywhere should be doing.
I think that many of us - in the beginning - think that we have to over compensate because WE are what is broken. And that is not the case. We are actually ahead of the average person. The habits that we build in ourselves and our lives are based on HEALTH.
Hi Amy. Well done for not gaining any weight on holiday. That, in itself, is pretty brilliant. And I don't think you should feel bad about not having cookies in the house - they're not healthy for the children either!
In future I think you just need to make it clear to your mother that you can't accept such "gifts". I'm sure she has plenty of other friends/family to give cookies to if she likes baking. SHe can always make them for charity if there's no-one else close by. You have to be strong over this. Love is not about giving people things that are going to contribute to destructive behaviour ie bingeing in this case. Would you do that to your children? I think not.
Great to make a new resolve over losing weight. I think you're doing brilliantly!
Best wishes,
Bearfriend xx
I just want to add an AMEN to Vickie's comment!
Don't beat yourself up too bad, because we ALL have things that we can't keep in the house...not even one. Yours is cookies, mine is pork roast w/ rice and gravy, lol.
The impt thing is that you got them out of the house when you realized it was a problem. Good for you! I understand about weighing weekly...I have to know, too...whether it's good or bad.
I'm glad you had a great time in Vegas! I am sooooo far behind in blog reading...just been flitting around. I plan on sitting down this wknd in the evenings and catching up on EVERYONE! Hope you have a fabulous weekend....Gotta' run out the door to the gym...they open at 8am!! :)
Homemade cookies: jummie! They're my pain in the a*h too :)
Sometimes you don't lose any weight and you didn't gain either so that's a good thing. Good luck on getting back on track, I know you can!
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